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it's been a while. i've been so disinterested in pretty much everything. but, ive been doing a lot of good things.
i moved! i'm also in a relationship now, lol. and before that, i got my heartbroken(but i got good dick out of it so whatever????)
anyway, im still in my rut. i don't feel like talking to people or being productive most of the time. i've been thinking about dying a lot more as well, not actively trying to do it- but just thinking about the outcome,
and if it'd be a good idea for me to just flat out do it. i'm a coward though, lmao, it's never gonna happen. anyway!! biden won(: bitch im happy asf lmao,
hopefully he can reverse this covid mess trump caused. i miss life, i barely see my boyfriend because of my anxiety.
so quarantine is killing me, legitimately. im immunocomprimised so there isn't much i can do, that plus i have a major back injury.
my boss ultimately had me choose between coming back to work or wuitting, so i quit !!!! fun !!!! im jobless for the second
summer in a row !!! i miss being around people i miss drugs and i miss being distracted from all the shit in my head. i legit
just turned 20 this year, never thought i would make it to this age but im here and for the past 4 months i've just been laying
around, wanting to end myself, flirting w random dudes on bumble for a week and then getting annoyed, and crying constantly
over my back and just life in general !!!! i feel so broken and alone and flawed literally my exsistence is nothing !!!!!!!!!
i hate it so MUCH